Back!

I know... I was supposed to be back on Tuesday, and now it's Sunday, but I was far from home on tour with an orchestra weeeew. But I'm home now, so hai!

What happened to human interaction?

So I've noticed that a lot of teenagers are all fine and dandy talking to people over the internet, but when it comes to face-to-face interaction, they can't do it. (This includes me here). Isn't this a bit sad? What's happened to human interaction? I have a feeling in 50 years from now, nobody will know how to talk to another human being in real life; only over the internet. I don't want to let this happen. So here's something for all you awkward teenagers (or adults) to try. Give up Facebook, blogs and any other way to talk to people over the internet for 5 days. In that time, try to talk to as many people face-to-face as possible. Try it, you won't regret it! After the 5 days is over, if you still feel awkward and unhappy talking to people in real life, try it all again. I'll be doing this with you, so it's bye-bye blog for 5 days! I'll let you know what happened when I get back :) :3

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FREEZING

It's so cold in Australia right now. I'M COLD AS SHIT HOLY CRAP

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*Pageviews have stayed at 71 the past few days*
*Is sad* :(

Miss you allll (all 0 of you)

I'm going to Sydney next weekend (7 days from now) and I'll be gone a week. D: What will I do without you?!?

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I feel like making a tumblr... If I make one, will any of you follow me? XD It'll probably be "I'll be a hermit one day" like this blog :3

What's going on right now

So I know I've written a few posts that probably sounded a bit depressing and I know how much of an idiot I look. But I just want to tell you what's going on right now.

I have a habit of pushing everyone who cares about me away. I don't mean to do it, I love them all, but I can't keep a friend for more than 2 years because when I start to get close to them, I freak out and end up pushing them away and out of my life. I had a friend who I loved so, so much and for about a year or so, I told her absolutely everything. Now that I've told her absolutely everything of my life, from when I used to be suicidal and cut, from about a few months ago when I was happiest in years, I can't keep her close to me. I don't know why, but she's slipping from my fingers as fast as every other friend I ever had. She's pretty much the only friend I have left and if I lose her by pushing her away just like everybody else, I have no one left. No one. And I don't want to be alone again.

Now to the matter of the boy I was so good friends with. A few months ago, he decided to come into my life and be my good friend. We'd stay up until 3am playing games together and he'd tell my it was the best fun he's had in years. Then one day he confessed a lot of stuff about his life to me. Knowing that he probably expected a confession in return, I stupidly blurted out a lot of stuff about me. And naturally, guess who doesn't talk to me anymore? Of course, just like every friend I got close to, I pushed him away from me and put up those stupid walls of defiance. I miss him so much. I miss his company dearly.

So please, if you're reading this and you care about me, help me! Give me some advice please! I know, it's so stupid putting such personal stuff on the internet, but this is my last resort. There's no one else who'll help me, so hopefully someone will come across this blog and care about me. If you're reading this and you care, I love you dearly.

<3 -Lauren

EDIT: I also feel under a lot a pressure when I make friends. I'm so incredibly shy and socially awkward that I'm constantly trying to turn myself into someone else in order to not bore the person and keep their interest because I'm scared that if myself, they'll get bored and sick of me and just leave and ditch me like everyone else.

What?

I want to say something. I want to scream something to the world. What that is, I don't know. But I think it's something along the lines of "help me".

Derp

Listen to Chiodos.

That is all.

Whyyyyyyy

Must... resist... urge... to reactivate... Facebook...

Interesting people around today

Today I saw an unbelievably tall girl with dark brown hair. Sounds nice right? WROOOONG! She had literally white dreadlock extensions in the ends of her hair, bright blue platform boots, an extra short bright pink mini skirt and a very low cut black singlet with spiderweb sleeve things. Needless to say, there were many people staring at her. Probably not in a nice way either. I think she can wear whatever she wants, in fact, I admire her for having the guts to wear all that and still hold her head high; proud of who she is.

Should your best friend hug the guy you're very, very fond of and have been fond of for 2 years? Should she try to hide it from you? The only reason I found out that she'd done that, is because he posted on her wall how it was a really nice hug. Should she do this? Or am I overreacting? Seeing that post broke my heart. Not only because she was hugging him and stuff, but because she tried to hide it from me. I couldn't help but feel incredibly hurt by it.

So that's about all that was interesting today...

Where have you all gone?

I've had no pageviews over the past few days... Am I not posting enough? I'm sorry my life is incredibly boring lol I only post when I have something to say. So I guess what I'm trying to say is where are you all? D: